[Verse 1]
A door slams and I flinch and duck,
my muscles tighten, body’s frozen Stuck.
Glass breaks, a sudden, jarring sound,
Put my hands on my ears and scream aloud
A six lane highway, loud semis flying by me
My knees go weak, it heightens my anxiety
The scent of pine, a stranger's cologne,
And the air goes thin, I’m all alone.
[Chorus]
the side effects, a phantom limb I feel,
A nervous system that won't stay healed.
the replay of the past behind my eyes,
A disguise of what normal implies.
It's a wall I've built inside,
A fortress where I have to hide.
Oh, the side effects, damage unseen,
The silent battle I carry with me.
[Verse 2]
I lie awake, listen to the world sleep,
Hearing every floorboard, every single creak.
I tell myself it's just the wind, it’s fine,
But my breath stays shallow, and I hide.
[Chorus]
the side effects, a phantom limb I feel,
A nervous system that won't stay healed.
the replay of the past behind my eyes,
A disguise of what normal implies.
It's a wall I've built inside,
A fortress where I have to hide.
Oh, the side effects, damage unseen
The silent battle I carry with me.
[Bridge]
I hear, "You're strong," and “You can’t quit,"
But They don't know the worst parts I omit.
The part that loves, but pulls away too fast,
Fearing that any moment, I’ll see the past.
The part that needs to say, "you’re forgiven,"
That keeps me from moving on and livin
But showing weakness is crossing a line.
It’s what I’ve learned, to keep me alive
[Chorus]
the side effects, a phantom limb I feel,
A nervous system that won't stay healed.
the replay of the past behind my eyes,
A disguise of what normal implies.
It's a wall I've built inside,
A fortress where I have to hide.
Oh, the side effects, damage unseen,
The silent battle I carry with me.
[Outro]
Yeah, the silent battle...
But maybe soon, that wall will come down.
And maybe soon, my past will allow it.
It's a long road, but I'm going to the light.
Mmmm, I'm going to the light
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