Not Intentional

(Verse 1)

I’m not shutting you out, I honestly don’t know why you say I am.

You say I make you silent, but I listen when you speak.

I listened through your chaos, every word you said last night,

So I don’t understand why I still end up as the one you want to fight.

I’m trying hard to hear you, but I never get it right,

You want me to speak for you, but my voice just won’t ignite.

(Pre-Chorus)

I don’t do well with talking,

My thoughts get stuck, they stall—

I’m sorry if my silence

Feels like I don’t care at all.

(Chorus)

It’s not intentional,

I’m not avoiding you.

I go invisible

Whenever trouble blooms.

I’m not the villain in the story

You keep writing in your mind,

I’m just scared of choosing sides

In a war that isn’t mine.

It’s not intentional—

It’s just the only way I know to survive.

(Verse 2)

I’m sorry that you feel it like betrayal in your bones,

I curl into my shell whenever conflict starts to grow.

When two people that I love start tearing at the seams,

I get quiet ’cause the drama always pulls me underneath.

If you think you’re singled out, well, the truth is you’re not—

Everyone gets the silence when the pressure gets too hot.

(Pre-Chorus)

And I know that it hurts you

When I’m swallowing my voice—

But staying out of fire

Feels like my safest choice.

(Chorus)

It’s not intentional,

I’m not avoiding you.

I go invisible

Whenever trouble blooms.

I’m not the villain in the story

You keep writing in your mind,

I’m just scared of choosing sides

In a war that isn’t mine.

It’s not intentional—

It’s just the only way I know to survive.

(Bridge)

Maybe I’m flawed,

Maybe I’m quiet,

Maybe I’ve never learned

How to survive it—

All the storms you bring

When your heart starts to bleed,

But I promise I hear you,

Even when I can’t speak.

(Final Chorus)

It’s not intentional,

I’m not shutting down.

I’m just terrified

Of choosing wrong somehow.

I never meant to hurt you,

Never meant to make you cry—

I’m trying, even if it’s messy,

Just to keep us both alive.

It’s not intentional—

It’s just the only way I know to survive.