Mask

Why would I hurt someone I love most,

Why would I hurt myself more than I could imagine,

Why is my breathing getting heavier,

Why is eating feeling like a chore,

Why do see no light at the end of the tunnel,

Life’s getting harder than I could imagine,

Losing the girl I love for my actions I can’t forgive,

Sleep seems to not give me grace,

My mind seems to nothing give me peace,

But I’m just hidden in the mask,

I get jealous of seeing other people happy,

Because I wish I could join along,

Not disguise myself in fiction,

Cause I feel like my purpose is lost,

My happiness is fading away,

I hate to be hiding behind this mask to show I’m okay,

I don’t feel okay,

I feel too broken that I can’t be fixed,

What’s the point of living this life if I’m just gonna be miserable,

Every ending doesn’t have conclude with joy,

Doesn’t have to conclude with fulfilled,

I’m lacking forgiveness for myself,

But I keep on being told that time can tell and heal,

But time is running slow,

I’m too impatient to see where life leads,

Why does it seem like suicide will set me free,

I get jealous of seeing other people happy,

Because I wish I could join along,

Not disguise myself in fiction,

Cause I feel like my purpose is lost,

My happiness is fading away,

I hate to be hiding behind this mask to show I’m okay,

I feel lost without her,

My life feels dull,

Covered by dark mist of clouds,

Fogging my brain to think straight,

Will I be alright,

I feel too broken to be fixed,

So they should leave me be,

Because I’m but a virus,

I’m too lethal,

Too hard to love,

I get jealous of seeing other people happy,

Because I wish I could join along,

Not disguise myself in fiction,

Cause I feel like my purpose is lost,

My happiness is fading away,

I hate to be hiding behind this mask to show I’m okay,

I feel like I can’t be who I want,

I just hurt my people,

Loved ones wounded,

Rotting my brain inside,