Deathbed

I think i found her

BUt she aint found me

All these feelings they surroumd me

Feel like im drowning

I need a way out

That shit is played out

I need a moment to myself to figure this out

What the fuck

I dont understand

I wanna give you everything

Please just take my hand

You dont understand

Dont think you ever will

But for you id kill

Ill be jack and your jill

Lets roll down this hill

Im feeling feelings that i never thought that i would feel

Can this all be real

Is it just dream

Its just you and me

Everything ive asked for

I cannot believe

Its too good to be true

Theres a million things that i would give up just for you

Tell me to be there

Then im coming truh

I dont wanna let you down

Its something i cant do

When the world is falling down

Ill be there to protect you

You can count on me

No matter what youre going through

Even in the next life ill be there forever

I dont want an ex wife

I know we can do better

I wrote it all down

Everythings inside this letter

I shouldve told you sooner

I wont be here next year

Doctors said im dying

But i swear thay this was at least worth trying

I wasnt lying i was just hiding

Running from truth

But i am so scared

I dont wanna die this is not fair

Im reallly living a nightmare