Murder on my mind

Verse 1
Got murder on my mind but it ain’t nobody else
It’s the thoughts in my head tryna bury myself
White coats, cold rooms, cancer in my name
Every mirror got a stranger, every smile feels fake
Depression in my chest like a weight I can’t move
Anxiety whisperin’ lies tellin’ me what I’ll lose
I scream in the silence, nobody hears a sound
Feel unloved in a crowd, still alone when I’m found
Pre-Chorus
Demons talk slick, say I’m better off gone
But I wake up every day like, “Nah, you’re wrong”
I bleed in my verses so I don’t bleed inside
Still here, still fightin’, still choosing to survive
Chorus
Murder on my mind, yeah, I battle it daily
But I ain’t gonna let it be the thing that takes me
Cancer in my body, pain in my soul
But I’m more than this hurt, I’m still in control
I walk through the fire with tears in my eyes
Demons want my spirit but I won’t let it die
Verse 2
Some days I feel numb, some days I feel rage
Some days I’m a warrior, some days I’m afraid
Love feels distant like it don’t know my name
I give my whole heart and still end up in chains
I’m tired of explainin’ why I’m not okay
Tired of bein’ strong when I’m breakin’ away
But there’s a pulse in my chest, still poundin’ on time
That’s proof I’m more than the dark in my mind
Pre-Chorus
Yeah the thoughts get loud, yeah they feel so real
But thoughts ain’t truth, they don’t get the wheel
I grip the night till the morning arrives
If I’m still breathin’, then I’m still alive
Chorus
Murder on my mind, but I choose my life
I won’t let the darkness sharpen the knife
Cancer tried to claim me, pain tried too
But I’m standin’ right here sayin’ “I’m not through”
I walk through the fire with scars as my crown
Still fightin’ demons, still holdin’ my ground
Bridge
If you see me smilin’, don’t think I’m healed
I just learned how to hide what I really feel
But hear this clear, yeah I need to say
I’m allowed to hurt and still wanna stay
Outro
Murder on my mind, but hope in my veins
I’m not my disease, I’m not my pain
I’m a soul still fightin’, still choosing to stand
Even with the darkness tryin’ to take my hand

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