Never

What if you want to end it?

But you can't

What if you don't feel the same anymore?

But you can't hurt him.

You feel so pressured when with him.

You just don't know how to let go.

If you talk, you are judged.

Not by God, but by people.

No one cares about your feelings.

But you care about them.

I might be wearing a mask,

But I'm hurt

So hurt to the point where I can't even complain

I want real friends.

Friends who can understand

And not judge.

But In my generation

It's impossible

You live with constant fear of being judged that you can't even talk.

When I keep quiet they say I'm angry.

Then he keeps on bugging me

Shaking me

Until I say I'm fine.

I always wonder if he will ever run out of love for me.

I love him, yes

But as an ally

Not as a partner I will spend my life with.

But if I tell him my real feelings.

He kind of emotionally threatens me.

Saying he can't live without me

And that he thinks about Killing himself.

Tell me what should I do.