Here But Gone

I been smilin’ for the cameras, pain tucked in my coat

Everybody see the wave, never notice I’m afloat

On a sea of expectations, drownin’ in the noise

They clap when I’m achievin’, never hear the quiet void

Late nights with my thoughts, they don’t ever clock out

Dreams heavy in my chest, hard to breathe when I talk now

They say “you next up,” but I feel like I’m behind

Runnin’ circles round the past, tryna outrun my mind

I been holdin’ it together with some tape and a prayer

If you look me in the eyes, you can see I’m not there

Yeah, I’m here, but I’m gone, yeah, I’m strong, but I’m tired

Tryna light up the dark, but my flame feelin’ lighter

They don’t know what it cost just to get out of bed

Every loss leave a mark, every word in my head

Mama say “keep your faith,” but it’s harder at night

When the room get too quiet and the doubts wanna fight

Friends fade like the echo when the hype disappear

Everybody love the music, nobody love the fear

I been talkin’ to myself like, “Just give it some time”

But time keep takin’ pieces, leavin’ less of what’s mine

I been holdin’ it together with some tape and a prayer

If you look me in the eyes, you can see I’m not there

Yeah, I’m here, but I’m gone, yeah, I’m strong, but I’m tired

Tryna light up the dark, but my flame feelin’ lighter

If I fall, will they catch me or just watch from afar?

Love feel conditional, only count when you star

I don’t need all the answers, just a moment of peace

Somewhere I can be human, somewhere I can just breathe

So I write all this pain, put it straight on the beat

If you feel what I’m sayin’, then you feelin’ like me

We not broken, just bent, still learnin’ to stand

Hope tomorrow got a better version of who I am