Here But Gone

[Verse 1]
I been smilin’ for the cameras, pain tucked in my coat
Everybody see the wave, never notice I’m afloat
On a sea of expectations, drownin’ in the noise
They clap when I’m achievin’, never hear the quiet void
Late nights with my thoughts, they don’t ever clock out
Dreams heavy in my chest, hard to breathe when I talk now
They say “you next up,” but I feel like I’m behind
Runnin’ circles round the past, tryna outrun my mind
[Chorus]
I been holdin’ it together with some tape and a prayer
If you look me in the eyes, you can see I’m not there
Yeah, I’m here, but I’m gone, yeah, I’m strong, but I’m tired
Tryna light up the dark, but my flame feelin’ lighter
[Verse 2]
They don’t know what it cost just to get out of bed
Every loss leave a mark, every word in my head
Mama say “keep your faith,” but it’s harder at night
When the room get too quiet and the doubts wanna fight
Friends fade like the echo when the hype disappear
Everybody love the music, nobody love the fear
I been talkin’ to myself like, “Just give it some time”
But time keep takin’ pieces, leavin’ less of what’s mine
[Chorus]
I been holdin’ it together with some tape and a prayer
If you look me in the eyes, you can see I’m not there
Yeah, I’m here, but I’m gone, yeah, I’m strong, but I’m tired
Tryna light up the dark, but my flame feelin’ lighter
[Bridge]
If I fall, will they catch me or just watch from afar?
Love feel conditional, only count when you star
I don’t need all the answers, just a moment of peace
Somewhere I can be human, somewhere I can just breathe
[Outro]
So I write all this pain, put it straight on the beat
If you feel what I’m sayin’, then you feelin’ like me
We not broken, just bent, still learnin’ to stand
Hope tomorrow got a better version of who I am

pop, emo, emo rap