Madness.

In my mind are thoughts,I deemed so dark,
So dark,
I'M DROWNING,ITS ALL TOO
DAMN  CAOTIC, 
CHAOS 
damaging, inner phases  type
Words,step in too stages like the simplest broke down pronounciated  words 
So spell this out 
I'm just a simple of characters trying to stay alive

 In this place A place that's so
 overwhelming, So horrid
That I have to open my eyes
I need to get into my own brain
So I can acknowledge that this
Shit is not real.

It's not real
I tell myself 
Wake up
This is not my life
Or my reality

You see eyes may deceive me
They are not mine this is not my reality

These eyes are showing me things. That couldn't be possible 
In this fracture of an instant,I'm aware of my duality

The loudness of blaring horns 
The echoes of barking dogs.Tires screeching behind me.In that moment a  idiot lacks attention as he nearly hits me, barely avoiding a headon collision, 

The  sounds of Royale flushes going off on vegas slots all around me...,In the distance  ahead of me,a woman yelling from the top of her violent voice at her now embarrassed better half

It's chaos 
Is this reality
It's so chaotic 

Sirens enter the loud symphonic symphony,of the many annoyingly high and low sounds.
 
At that moment Un announced
I get so frustrated,call irritated, irrelevant more angry 
Now no matter what every little thing no matter the severity.

Only adds  to the jug of all the anguish and madness that surrounds me.
Like a child,
Like a child

A quarter from my pocket change
Placed in that jar of propensity no .after the ti.e for e ery curse.
Eventually the jug will overflow pain from past damage ...shamed  
By inrepaired  hurtful events 

Caused by trauma  sacrifices  and all of reality-based contents.
NOW  from the jug of anger
I feel the wrath,suffering by consistency  and  consequences  at hand,

At times lives are unfortunate 
Bound bodies and souls who see 
The null and voids of dangerous 
Curiosities...I do my best to not hide though I surrender  under lock and key.

I keep all for who to see locked up and away ,so  dark clouds  and lightning  don't  perform  above me thunder sounds the sky no matter day or night 

I can smell the quiet before the storm ,the trembling characters  tbesides me, no more anguish left behind  I've set it up to now is where to whoms anxiety is beyond me....

West coast trap,ravehauntingly
Deep bass biannual body frequency deep soft metal guitar &drums
Deep male vocals