Goodbye my love

I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart

For being in my life both good and bad

For giving me the dreams I never wished or held

For all those things that you “forgot” we’ve had

For warm good mornings cheek to cheek

For guarding up my sleep in airport waiting seat

For warming up my hands in snowy park

For all this passion, hugs and kisses in the dark

For having me even when I was wild

Allowing me to crash into you at night

For giving me your warm embrace

I loved so much and it was my safest place.

For thrilling “Will you marry me?”

That lifted me to heavens instantly

You then erased it from your memory

And proved by deeds you never took it seriously.

For all this pleasure that your promised me to give and never did,

For all these piercing words I won’t forgive.

For pushing back so hard when needed you the most,

For all my shattered dreams that I had lost.

I thank for all of that. It’s over.

And now I’m done with my makeover.

Remember when you broke my fragile heart,

You told me just to live with that.

That’s what I did. It made me stronger –

I made myself much better than you ever wanted.

You know that Joji song was truly right

And you can have whoever by your side

No one would ever love you like I did

Cause all I wanted was to make you happiest man indeed.

And even when I almost died

While I was fighting for my life

I wished I had you by my side

Not knowing later you won’t even say me “hi”.

That made me feel I shouldn’t have made it

And you’d prefer you never met me

Well, boy… I’m sorry I’m not dead.

But walking happily by your eyes instead.

However...

We are birds of feather

And even though you don’t remember

We many lives have been together.

I guess for you it doesn’t matter

And I already hear you cold “whatever”…

However…

Next life time or this one

You’d want me to forgive for all you’ve done.

One day you’ll realize it all,

You’ll make it up, you’ll keep your words.

For now good bye. My pain has faded,

Just like your scent has left the T-shirt that you gave me.

And even though you’d never tell me

I always feel your thoughts on me cause we are still connected…