[Intro]
I don’t know if I’m getting closer
Or just getting better at pretending
But I know I didn’t come this far
Just to turn around now
[Verse 1]
I got a head full of plans and a room full of reasons
Why I shouldn’t do ‘em, but I still don’t delete ‘em
Everybody got advice when you’re standing at the edge
Funny how they disappear when you actually take the step
I used to need somebody telling me I’m doing okay
Now I get uncomfortable when somebody says my name
Like they know what I’ve been through, like they know what I’ve seen
You can know my whole story and still not know me
I’ve made mistakes I’m not proud of
Lost some people I thought would be around
Had nights where I couldn’t shut my brain off
And mornings where I didn’t wanna get out
But I did.
That’s the part nobody talks about.
[Hook]
I’m still here
Even when I didn’t wanna be
Still here
Even when I couldn’t see
Where this was going
What I was becoming
I’m still here
And maybe that’s enough for me
[Verse 2]
I stopped counting every time I fell
Started counting every time I got back up
Started realizing some of my worst days
Were the days that built me up
I don’t have the answers
I don’t even have the plan
I just know I’m tired of being scared
Of becoming who I am
I got dreams that make no sense on paper
That’s probably why I love ’em
’Cause if everybody understood ‘em
They probably wouldn’t be mine
And I still hear that voice sometimes
Saying “what if you fail?”
I just answer back
“What if I don’t?”
[Hook]
I’m still here
With a little more damage than before
Still here
But I don’t recognize the kid anymore
He wanted everybody’s approval
I just want something that’s mine
I’m still here
And I’m finally starting to like my life
[Melodic Rap]
I been low, I been high, I been somewhere in between
Had to lose a couple versions just to find the one that’s me
Everybody wants the finish, nobody wants the middle
Where you’re fighting with yourself and every choice feels little
I don’t need a perfect life
I need a life I actually chose
If it takes me ten more years
Then I guess that’s how it goes
I’ve got too much left to prove
And honestly, not to them
Every time I thought it was the ending
It was just another beginning
[Final Hook]
I’m still here
That’s the part I can’t ignore
Still here
And I ain’t who I was before
Maybe I was never broken
Maybe I was just becoming
I’m still here
And I’m not running anymore
[Outro]
Still here
Still me
Still becoming
That’s enough