[Intro]
I too was born
to be a loud ass bitch
not the kind they could quiet
not the kind they could fix
I got a storm in my chest
and a mouth full of truth
if I shake when I speak
that don’t mean I’m scared of you
[Verse 1]
Sixteen when the world first split me open
learned too young how a body can go frozen
smiling in the mirror like I knew who I was
but I was miles away, disconnected just because
they took what they wanted, left me with shame
I carried their shadows while they kept their names
I learned how to leave my body on the floor
then wake up in the morning like I’d done it before
[Pre-Chorus]
And survival don’t always look clean
sometimes it’s dead eyes in a pretty routine
doing what I had to when the rent was due
don’t you judge me for the hell I made it through
I was young, almost homeless, barely on my feet
so I made peace with being separate from me
but peace ain’t the same as being free
one day I woke up and came back to me
[Chorus]
I’m not ashamed of the body I survived in
not ashamed of the nights I was hiding
not ashamed of the rage in my voice
when they took my consent and then called it a choice
I’m not quiet, I’m not sweet, I’m not small
I’m the scream in the courthouse, the writing on the wall
I too was born to be a loud ass bitch
and I won’t die silent just to make men rich
[Rap Verse]
Look, I reported it, recorded it, sat in that station
had his own damn words in the conversation
said what he did while I wasn’t awake
tell me how much more evidence does it take?
Six months passed, no call, no motion
DA stayed still like a dried-up ocean
I’m in court every week, so I checked that door
like, “What do you need? What you waiting for?”
Then I caught a case with a child getting hurt
thirty reports and they still did dirt
so I made noise, yeah, I pressed on the wound
then my own case got declined real soon
“Insufficient evidence,” that’s the line they gave
while survivors get buried and predators get saved
So when they ask why women don’t report
tell ’em the truth: the system protects its own court
[Verse 2]
I’ve seen mothers shaking in my chair
seen little girls learn life isn’t fair
seen women explain every bruise like a crime
while men get the benefit of everybody’s time
And I’m not just angry, I am awake
I know what it costs when truth gets erased
I know how it feels to be evidence and still
be told your pain is not enough to be real
[Bridge]
This is for the girls who never told
for the women who froze and still feel cold
for the ones asked what they wore
for the ones blamed for surviving war
You are not dirty, you are not weak
you are the thunder when your knees still speak
[Outro]
I’m the witness, the lawyer, the woman, the proof
I’m the consequence walking in heels and truth
I’m the case they declined but could never erase
I’m the rage with a name and a beautiful face
I too was born to be a loud ass bitch
and I’m done asking power for permission to exist.