In between
Falling out is easier than falling in
Love is not a feeling
Like you want to believe
A word made of stone
A heart clipped and cloned
Trimming off the bits that held
My identity
Blame is such an unfair game
When no one holds the weapon
But the wounds still remain
Crying from a place of infinite grace
Only leaves my light sucked dry
If there’s never an end
Then no one really wins
And I’m left in between a state that I cannot name
This place is not desolate or racked with disease
But the drones keep on walking
Toward hell’s raspy breeze
Blazing in light, those of us dry
Feel compelled to keep moving
Even if we die
Soaking in a sun, gaunt and pale
Only leaves me incomplete
But it’s you that I’ve failed
Crying from a place of infinite grace
Only leaves my light sucked dry
If there’s never an end
Then no one really wins
And I’m left in between a state that I cannot name
How can I recover from a state I do not know
When I hear you crying out, and the feelings don’t flow
What can I say when I’ve been utterly reduced
To a fragment of a diamond that once shined through?
Crying from a place of infinite grace
Only leaves my light sucked dry
If there’s never an end
Then no one really wins
But I want to reclaim what’s been lost on this plane
To be part of your life in the way I used to be
But only God can see me
I’m still left in between a state that I cannot name
Floundering for a hand that I pray will remain. Please stay
I can’t do this alone
When you are my home
And I dream of the day
I can love you the same way