Fade like me

Ash on my jeans, blood on my sleeve

Heart full of holes, but I still can’t leave

You said “forever,” I said “okay”

Now I’m screaming at ghosts in the bed we made

Pills on the counter, smoke in my lungs

Love never lives, it just dies young

I gave you my soul, and you turned your back

Now I’m sittin’ here prayin’ for a heart attack

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If I fade tonight, would you even know?

If I disappear, would you let me go?

I’m just a shadow in a world that’s loud

Ghost boy floatin’ through a silent crowd

I can’t feel shit, can’t fake this pain

Every smile I wear just hides the rain

So if I fade tonight, just let me be

’Cause no one ever really stays for me

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Eyes like static, voice like snow

I text your name just to feel alone

You haunt my phone like you haunt my head

I loved you too much — now I wish I was dead

Tattoo your name on a heartbreak track

Every song I write, just beggin’ you back

But you’re gone, and I’m still here

Bleedin’ out slow in my souvenir tears

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If I fade tonight, would you even know?

If I disappear, would you let me go?

I’m just a shadow in a world that’s loud

Ghost boy floatin’ through a silent crowd

I can’t feel shit, can’t fake this pain

Every smile I wear just hides the rain

So if I fade tonight, just let me be

’Cause no one ever really stays for me

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I ain’t scared to die…

Just scared no one would notice.