I hate everything about you

I hate that I love you. I hate that you treated me poorly. You told me not to worry and she's just a friend. You didn't cheat but it felt like you did. You betrayed me while stabbing me in the back. You dated my friend and acted like it was fine. You moved on so quickly like I was nothing to you. I loved you while you were at your worst but you made me seem like the worst. You seem happy with her but I'm selfish and I can't let you go. You showed her off and kissed her in front of me. I want to let you go but I can't find the door. You fucked my friends behind my back and rubbed it in my face. You think you know me but you were too worried about everyone else. I hate this win and lose game. I hate the feelings I have for you. You made me sick of myself and now I compare myself. You put pain in my eyes and now that's all I feel. You lied to my face, how can I ever trust you again? I hate the days when I'm young and naive.