Toxic recap

I look at the manual of my internal being, wires and diagrams that you've constructed in me. But your construct is truly demeaning, and now my codes won't let me see.

You built me one way, yet you ask me to be something else. You think I've gone a stray, your disapproval is abundantly felt.

You say too forgive or forget, it's water under the bridge. But toxic water now collecting and I'm feeling the carnage. The sky's growing dark now, and the rain is upon me. You can't recant or retract the pain you've cause me!

Unable to live by your own rule; I see you all now for what you are. Your wicked games are cruel, and it's gone too far.

You think she's a sorceress, and I am some how under her spell. She knows I'm enchanted, I know you are the demons in this world gone to hell.

You say too forgive or forget, it's water under the bridge. But toxic water now collecting and I'm feeling the carnage. The sky's growing dark now, and the rain is upon me. You can't recant or retract the pain you've cause me!

Most times I wish I had no hope. The taste of cold blue steel or the freedom of a rope. It's not defiance, it's the will to find what's pure. Respect my fucking boundaries is how love can endure.

You always choose what's easy, afraid that others may judge. Do what's right, and let the judger be the judged. But you've chosen to throw the stones, and success for pushing me away. My life will not be your own, I've been marooned and betrayed!

You say too forgive or forget, it's water under the bridge. But toxic water now collecting and I'm feeling the carnage. The sky's growing dark now, and the rain is upon me. You can't recant or retract the pain you've cause me!

Why can't you be honest, and cleanse the water for us. Why can't you be humble, and close the distance between us.

Why can't you be civil, instead of being two faced.

The results of your actions, I feel replaced or erased!

The next time you see me, just look the other way. I wish all the harm upon you, so you may feel the same way. The level of spite and bitterness, the only thing you've left inside me. Don't call, don't write, I'm so far past an apology.

You say too forgive or forget, it's water under the bridge. But toxic water now collecting and I'm feeling the carnage. The sky's growing dark now, and the rain is upon me. You can't recant or retract the pain you've cause me!

Sometimes...

Separations the only treat.

Sometimes...

The winner meets defeat.

Sometimes...

Success is felt alone.

The old me died years ago, but the new me is finally home!