Fading

The spark out of the blue.

The butterflies, the garden of feelings; we talked about has whitered.

It was a high dose of what I never expected, baby!

After ages I felt what had actually been totally numbed.

It felt surreal and too good to be true.

Day dreaming even when I was all in all, on phone with you!

It gives me chills and a smile remembering the times you would ask me to just hold the call just to hear me breathe.

There's alot of "these" that makes it harder to

believe that it's actually fading.

Was I being honest with you?

Yes, I was! bibi.....but,

I had to just let it flow like it had to.

I feel bad that it had to be that hard for me to choose my way.

The way that I haven't walked before.

The way that's full of uncertainty.

The way that could end me up with none.

Oh! How I wish we were not the victim of time and situation.

How I wish I could just feel once again, what we had , the spark we talked about and felt together.

How just within few months everything came and just passed, and quickly started fading!!!

Don't get me wrong in all these okay ,bibi. The emotions I'm throwing around is just how it is.

All over the place.

How I wish we could turn back time and hoped this feeling never crept inside the casualness we had.

Because, Bibi....I felt bad!