Drown in Disguise

[Verse 1]
Wake up, same weight on my chest
Fake grin, “I’m good,” like the rest
Play dumb, play strong, play nice
All the while I’m slipping on thin ice
Head loud, but my mouth stays quiet
Smile tight, but my brain’s on riot
Walk tall, but my spine feels snapped
Every high-five hides a panic attack
[Chorus]
I’m drowning in my own disguise
Hands up high while the hurt climbs
Say I’m fine, but I’m swallowing tide
Can’t catch breath from the waves inside
I’m drowning, drowning in disguise
(yeah, I’m drowning)
Drowning in my own fake smile
[Verse 2]
Crowd laughs, I just learn my lines
Punchlines thrown while I bleed dry
Hold jokes like a shield to my throat
Hide scars in the sleeves of this coat
Everybody loves that “I’m alright”
They don’t see when I lose that fight
Look calm while my lungs burn out
Every step feels like sinking down
[Bridge]
How deep
Can I fall, can I fall, till I don’t feel at all
No sleep
Just a loop, just a loop, of the same old brawl
Rip the mask
Off my face, off my face, till the truth draws blood
Let it crash
Let it flood, let it flood, let it flood (let it flood)
[Chorus]
I’m drowning in my own disguise
Hands up high while the hurt climbs
Say I’m fine, but I’m swallowing tide
Can’t catch breath from the waves inside
I’m drowning, drowning in disguise
(yeah, I’m drowning)
Drowning in my own fake smile

rap, Aggressive rap-metal with male vocals; dropped-tuned chugs, sharp palm-muted riffs over a lurching halftime groove, then double-time drums in the hook. Verses spit tight, percussive bars with slight vocal distortion; chorus explodes into screamed melody backed by octave guitars and gang vocals. Brief feedback swell into a breakdown on the bridge, then a final, clipped chorus and ring-out., rap metal