The Child I Still Breathe For"

I walk through crowds, but I’m not really there

Just a ghost with a heartbeat, a shell full of air

Every child I see is a stab to the chest

Each smile a reminder I’ve failed the test

You were my world, now I’m the villain

Twisted tales told, truth turned to sin

My arms are empty, your rooms are cold

The pictures are fading, I'm losing my hold

They say time heals, but they don’t know

What it’s like to be buried and still have to go—

I'm screaming inside where no one can hear

Drowning in memories year after year

You’re not gone, but you’re not mine

I’m doing life for love — without a crime

I’m the silence at the table, the ache in the seat

A parent without their children is never complete

Just a shadow, just a ghost with a heartbeat

Restaurants feel like battlegrounds now

Empty chairs preach grief I can’t allow

Forks and knives, they clang like alarms

In a world full of laughter, I’m stripped of your arms

Toy aisles are warzones, birthdays are pain

Every giggle’s a bullet straight into my brain

I hold onto echoes, your scent on old clothes

But even your memory is starting to close

They say let go, they say be strong

But they don’t know what it’s like to be gone—

I'm screaming inside where no one can hear

Drowning in memories year after year

You’re not dead, but you might as well be

Your silence is a cage that’s swallowing me

I'm the empty in the photo, the pause in the beat

A parent without their children is never complete

Just a shadow, just a ghost with a heartbeat

Every day without you is a wound that won't close

I’m drowning in silence, nobody knows

Your drawings still hang where you left them that day

I stare at the colors, watch them fade away

Your favorite cup, untouched on the shelf

I whisper your name when I'm by myself

Your laughter replays like a ghost in the hall

I reach for your hand—but there's nothing at all

There’s a word for a child with no home

For a lover left shattered, all alone

But no word for this wound that bleeds while it breathes

No name for the parent who silently grieves

They rewrote our story, ripped out my name

Left me to suffer, buried in shame

But I won’t stop calling through every storm

For the pieces of you that still keep me warm

I still hear your voice when the wind cuts deep

I see your face when I try to sleep

You didn’t forget me—I refuse to believe

I’ll wait here forever, through every grief

I’m screaming inside where no one can see

The wreckage of what we used to be

You’re out there laughing, I’m stuck in rewind

Held hostage by love that’s been redefined

They stole you from me with whispers and hate

Now I’m just a shadow outside heaven’s gate

A parent without their children is never complete

Just a ghost...

Just a ghost with a heartbeat

Come back to me…

Please…

Come back to me…

Hang on now…

They soon shall be back in your arms.