Verse 1
I borrowed calm from a stranger’s smile
Spent it fast just to feel alive
Every promise I wrote in pencil
Left an eraser in my spine
I kept the change from better days
In the pockets of my doubt
If peace is something you can lose
I already mapped the route
Pre-Hook
I do not steal from others
I take from who I was
Hook
I borrowed peace and never returned it
Left it out where the cold could learn it
Every prayer I folded in half
Came back heavier than that
I thought quiet was a place to hide
But it is just where the truth survives
I borrowed peace and never returned it
Now I pay in ways I never learned yet
Verse 2
I made a home out of half-goodbyes
Called it loyalty when it was fear
I trusted storms more than daylight
Because damage feels sincere
I rent my strength to future plans
Then cancel them when I am alone
I keep receipts from conversations
I never had with anyone
Pre-Hook
I do not fear forgiveness
I fear what it uncovers
Hook
I borrowed peace and never returned it
Told myself I did not deserve it
Every silence I tried to ignore
Put fingerprints on my doors
I blamed the night for how I live
Like darkness chose what I did
I borrowed peace and never returned it
Now I speak in unfinished sentences
Bridge
If mercy was a currency
I would be bankrupt twice
Every calm I ever touched
I trained myself to sacrifice
Do not call this self-defense
It is a habit wearing grace
I am not running from my past
I am racing it in place
Final Hook
I borrowed peace and never returned it
Carried guilt like a broken permit
Every good thing I left behind
Still clocks me when I close my eyes
I do not want a cleaner start
I want to pay what it cost my heart
I borrowed peace and never returned it
And I am done pretending I do not know where I spent it