Didn't say this out loud

TITLE: "I Didn’t Say This Out Loud"

I don’t talk about the nights I left of me

I didn’t say this out loud…

But I’m barely holding on

I’ve been tired in a way that sleep won’t ever fix

Like my soul’s worn thin from carrying all this

Every “I’m okay” just another quiet lie

I’ve been dying just to feel something inside

And I don’t need saving, I just need release

From the war that’s been living inside of me

Yeah I’m done pretending I’m alright

I’m done hiding from the fight

I didn’t say this out loud… but I’m breaking down

Yeah I carry the weight, but it’s crushing me now

If I let it all out… would I finally breathe?

Or find out there’s nothing left of me

I didn’t say this out loud…

But I’m screaming underneath

If I fall apart… don’t look away

This is who I’ve been… every day

Not a ghost, not gone… just buried deep

Under promises I couldn’t keep

(whisper this line)

I just wanted peace…

I’m saying it out loud… I’ve been breaking down

Yeah I carried the weight, but I’m letting it out

If I shatter right here… maybe I’ll be free

Maybe there’s still something left of me

I’m saying it out loud…

I’m still here somehow

Still here…

Still breathing…

Still speaking ,still thinking,still me