[Verse 1]
Crushed up on the counter
Blue dust on my fingers
Staring at the ceiling
Letting all the pain linger
Phone full of missed calls
I don’t even check names
Sip ‘til my tongue’s numb
Drift in the dark like rain
Said I’d quit last summer
Swore I’d flush that stash
But the quiet gets louder
So I chase that crash (yeah)
Eyes red in the mirror
Can’t look too long
All I see is a stranger
Trying to play strong
[Chorus]
Empty bottles, heavy head
Try to drown the thoughts instead
Every sip, I lose a piece
Pray this night just brings me peace
If I fade, if I fall
Would you even care at all?
I’m just running from the pain
Popping pills, pouring up again
[Verse 2]
Friends turned into ghosts
They don’t hit my line
Guess they got tired
Of watching me flatline
Momma on the voicemail
Voice shaking, “call back”
I replay it in silence
While I open that pack
Room spinning slow-motion
Heart racing off-beat
Every shadow on the wall
Feels like it’s watching me
They say “just feel better”
Like it’s that cheap
I’d trade every last drop
For one good night’s sleep (oh)
[Chorus]
Empty bottles, heavy head
Try to drown the thoughts instead
Every sip, I lose a piece
Pray this night just brings me peace
If I fade, if I fall
Would you even care at all?
I’m just running from the pain
Popping pills, pouring up again
[Bridge]
Is there life past this haze
Past these long, lost days?
If I put this down
Would the silence stay?
[Chorus]
Empty bottles, heavy head
Try to drown the thoughts instead
Every sip, I lose a piece
Pray this night just brings me peace
If I fade, if I fall
Would you even care at all?
I’m so tired of this game
Popping pills, pouring up my shame