Never Again

Never again

Staring at the ceiling, rage in my jaw

Phone full of texts that I never should’ve saw

You said I’m lucky just to even have you

Funny how the guilt always came from your side too

I shrank to fit you, bit my tongue raw

Smiled in the photos, died in the car

You turned my doubts into daily routine

Now the mirror shows a stranger that looks like me

Never again

Anger in my chest but I’m still surviving

Never again

Tears in my throat but I keep on driving

Never again

Regret in the rearview, small and sliding

Never again

I made it out breathing, that’s my silver lining

You loved me quiet, you loved me small

Loved me most when I’d take the fall

“Calm down, you’re crazy” every time I’d speak

You fed on my fear, got strong when I got weak

Now it’s one bag packed, front door wide

Playlist loud, heart pounding in time

I’m done rehearsing all the ways I failed

You can keep that script, I’m flipping the tale (yeah)

Surviving ain’t pretty

It’s coffee at midnight

Shaking in the shower

Still choosing the sunlight

I’m mad I stayed

I’m glad I ran

Two truths in my hands

And I live with both, I live with both