Broken tape

The song in my head drifts in and out of existence, like a broken tape in a car. Some days it’s so loud I want to scream and others it’s so quiet I yearn for it to be back again. Is it the silent that makes me feel crazy or the scratchy sound of the mix the never stops? I’m on an endless loop the same tune never ending. What would happen if it disappeared? Could I handle the silent? Would it tear me apart or finally give me pease? The answer I fear I may never know, for if the song really ended…I might not be here to know the emptiness of it’s absence.