[Verse 1]
Staring at the calendar
Little circles, little scars on my arm
Doctor saying, "We got options"
But it’s hard when your hope feels thin, disarmed
Friends keep posting tiny shoes
Baby showers, blue balloons
Smile in public, break in private
Shut the door and cry in the bedroom
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk to the ceiling like, "Are you listening?"
Hands on my belly like "Can you hear me?"
Every late-night prayer, same sentence
"Please turn this empty room into presence"
[Chorus]
I’ve been dreaming you into existence
Little heartbeat, loud in the distance
See your name on a door that’s still empty
Rocking in a chair that’s waiting, gently
This year, we’re coming for a miracle
Every shot, every tear, every visual
I’m holding on, holding on, holding on, baby
Til you’re holding on to me
[Verse 2]
Needles lined like soldiers
Bruises bloom where I pinch my skin
Wake at 5 for the blood work
Hope goes up, then they call again
"Let’s try once more," they say
Science dancing with faith
I got meds on the counter
And a vision of your face by the sink someday
[Pre-Chorus]
Talk to the ceiling like, "Are you with me?"
Hands on my belly like "Grow here, safely"
Every late-night test, same question
"Could this be our tiny blessing?"
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
If you’re out there, soul in the sky
We’re down here saving space in our lives
Got your stories stacked on the shelf
Got a love that might burst out my chest
[whispered vocals]
You’re not here yet, but I feel you
Every setback, I still see you
[full voice]
This year, I’m betting on that spark
Turning all this waiting into a start
[Chorus]