Gurll

Growing up, the mirror showed a stranger

In the Bible belt, where love was danger

They said a man and a woman, a perfect pair

I was searching for a feeling I couldn’t share

I’d see the girls with their hands in their hair

And a flutter in my chest that wasn't a prayer

Hid my notebooks, hid my truth, locked it all inside

Hoping one day that feeling would subside

Oh, the secret I held, a burden on my soul

Trying to fit a piece that wouldn't make me whole

I cried into my pillow, a silent, lonely fight

For a love that felt so wrong, but also felt so right

Prom night came, I wore a dress of white

Smiled for the camera with a boy by my side

He was sweet and kind, but my mind was elsewhere

Imagining the girls with their carefree stare

The whisper in the hallways, the jokes they'd make

Made me believe my heart was a mistake

Tried to date a dozen guys, but it was all pretend

Longing for a different kind of "happily ever after" to begin

Oh, the secret I held, a burden on my soul

Trying to fit a piece that wouldn't make me whole

I cried into my pillow, a silent, lonely fight

For a love that felt so wrong, but also felt so right

The years went by, the fear began to fade

I found a community, unafraid and unashamed

I met a woman with eyes like the morning sun

And for the first time, my new life had begun

She took my hand, a simple, gentle touch

And it healed all the years I'd hidden so much

Oh, the secret I held, a burden on my soul

Trying to fit a piece that wouldn't make me whole

I cried into my pillow, a silent, lonely fight

For a love that felt so wrong, but also felt so right

I finally saw myself, and she was beautiful.

Now I stand tall, embracing who I am

With every heartbeat, I’ve learned to make my stand

The journey to the heart is a path we all must find

With love as my guide, I leave the past behind.