Bright Screens

We met back in high school, two kids killing time,

You laughed at all my bad jokes, I swore that made you mine.

Your family became my family somewhere along the road,

Now our house is full of memories and stories left untold.

We’ve struggled and we’ve laughed, watched the years go by,

Held each other through the storms and all the sleepless nights.

You’re the mother of our two kids, and that will never change,

Even when the distance grows and nothing feels the same.

I said I didn’t cheat, but it’s spinning in my head,

Every word we throw around still echoes in our bed.

I hate the pain I’ve caused, I’m sorry for the lies,

But not for trying every day to keep this thing alive.

I say I’m sorry, but you don’t believe me anymore,

So tell me what to do now, because I’m not sure.

I can be your rock, I can be your friend,

I just don’t know how to bring us back again.

We lie awake with bright screens, looking different ways,

Two people in the same room drifting day by day.

If only you could see me like you used to do,

Because after all these years, I’m still in love with you.

Sometimes I just want you to say that it’s okay,

I want you to be proud of me at the end of every day.

I don’t like to fight, but maybe that’s my way,

Because underneath the anger, I’m begging you to stay.

In my head, I feel like I’ve been working hard for us,

Trying to build a future while the world keeps getting tough.

I’m lost, I’m trying, I still believe in this,

Holding onto memories and everything we miss.

I’ve had help before, but it never seemed to last,

Ever thought it could be you carrying something from the past?

Because I still see the girl from school standing in the rain,

And somehow after all this time, my heart still says your name.

I lay in bed beside you, staring at the ceiling light,

Wondering where we lost ourselves somewhere along the line.

If only it was me you could see when you looked my way,

Instead of all the things we said that we can’t take away.

Tell me what to do, because I’m running out of words,

Trying to fix what’s broken while my voice goes unheard.

I know that I’m not perfect, I know I’ve made mistakes,

But I’m standing here beside you with whatever strength it takes.

We’ve got scars and photographs, old songs and second chances,

A thousand little moments hidden in our glances.

Through every high and every low, through every wrong turn taken,

Through all the things we’ve broken and all the things worth saving.

We lie awake with bright screens, looking different ways,

Trying to find the people that we used to be someday.

If only you could see me like you used to do,

Because after all these years, I’m still in love with you.

We have struggled, we have laughed, we’ve built a life from scratch,

Watched our two kids growing up while trying to make it last.

You’re the mother of our children, and that will never change,

And I’ll keep trying to find us, through every fear a