I Hate That I Want You

Whispered repeats: “I hate… I hate that I want you…”

(Low, controlled delivery — like he’s trying to convince himself)

Said I’d never let you in — not a chance, not a crack.

You wear sin like a perfume, I still come crawling back.

You're a warning dressed in velvet, with a smile made to cut.

You're the mess I swore I'd leave — but you're the one I can't outrun.

(Tension builds, falsetto harmony on last line)

Tried to drown you out in fire,

But you’re gasoline to my desire.

Call it hate, call it fate — either way,

You're still all I crave.

(Full voice, emotional eruption. Think synths swelling.)

I hate that I want you,

I lie but it cuts through.

Your name’s on my tongue when I sleep,

You're the ache I can't keep.

I hate that I need you,

And every fight just feeds you.

You’re poison in lace,

And I drink for the taste.

(More rhythmic delivery, snapping back into control)

Golden boy with a tarnished crown —

You like to watch me fall down.

You make chaos look like art,

And I still let you in my heart.

You're a cigarette I swore off twice,

Lit again on a lonely night.

No good for me —

But I love the high.

(Softer tone, resignation creeping in)

I don't know where you end or I begin.

And I swear you’re under my skin.

You break me just to build me wrong,

But damn, I make you feel like a song.

(Layer harmonies + echo fx on “want you” / “need you”)

I hate that I want you,

I lie but it cuts through.

Your name’s on my tongue when I sleep,

You're the ache I can't keep.

I hate that I need you,

And every fight just feeds you.

You’re poison in lace,

And I drink for the taste.

You say I hate you...

But I think you know the truth.

You’re the only thing I can't un-feel.

And that scares me more than you do.

(First 4 lines: soft, piano only. Then big drop.)

I hate that I want you...

I hate that I want you...

I hate that I want you...

But I do.

(Drop back into full chorus for final repeat — belt it out.)