“Better Love Than Before”

Yeah…

I don’t wanna be the storm in your peace anymore

I just wanna love you better than before…

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I know I got walls, yeah I built ’em too high

Every little silence make me think goodbye

I hear old echoes from a past that lied

So I fight shadows that ain’t even your side

You say my heart don’t gotta stay in defense

But trust feels fragile when it barely made sense

I’m learning slowly how to loosen my hands

Loving you gentle instead of demands

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I don’t wanna hurt you just ‘cause I’m scared

Don’t wanna push you when you’re right there

Trying to heal what I never repaired…

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I don’t wanna be a toxic love

Don’t wanna make you feel not enough

I wanna be the place you run to

Not the reason that you undo

I don’t wanna fight just to feel secure

Don’t wanna make your heart unsure

I wanna be peace when life gets rough

Yeah, I just wanna love you soft enough

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Look —

I know my mind go racing when you quiet for a minute

Start a whole story, now I’m crying in it

Thinking you leaving, thinking I’m replaceable

Turning small moments into something untraceable

And I hate that version of me sometimes

Turning love into a courtroom of crimes

You ain’t my past, you ain’t those lines

Still I bring old pain across new timelines

I don’t wanna guilt you into staying close

Or make you feel like loving me’s a heavy dose

I’m tryna grow, not just propose

A better me than the one you know

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I’m learning love ain’t fear in disguise

It’s calm, it’s safe, it don’t minimize

I see it clearer through your eyes…

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I don’t wanna be a toxic love

Don’t wanna make you feel not enough

I wanna be the place you run to

Not the reason that you undo

I don’t wanna feel like I’m why you stray

Like I’m the reason you walk away

I just wanna build something real with us

A love that don’t self-destruct

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If I break habits, will you stay with me?

If I grow slowly, will you wait and see?

I’m not perfect, but I’m trying to be

Someone your heart feels free to keep

No more love built on fear of loss

No keeping score of who it cost

Just two hearts learning how to trust…

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I don’t wanna be the reason you change your tone

Or the reason you feel alone at home

I wanna clap when you win, not compete

Be your calm when the world gets loud in the streets

And if love means healing parts of me first

Then I’ll do that work, even when it hurts

‘Cause real love don’t replace — it grows

And I wanna be the safe you chose

Not toxic… just honest

Not perfect… just progress

Loving you better…

Yeah… loving me better too.