Control

[Verse 1 — restrained, self-aware]

I see the way I try to hide
Every fracture running through my spine
I say I’m strong, I say I’m leaving
But I fold the second you arrive

I wear my fear like second skin
Tell myself I’ll never let you in
But every promise breaks on cue
The moment I remember you

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[Pre-Chorus — realization]

I don’t fight the way I should
I freeze the moment that I could
My breath gives me away too soon
I know exactly what you do

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[Chorus — confession]

You have control
The quiet kind that pulls me close
I tell myself I’m saying no
But every step is toward you still

You have control
You take your time, you let it show
I come undone when you go slow
I hate how much it feels like home

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[Verse 2 — addiction awareness]

I tell myself I’m not the same
That I don’t crave the way you say my name
But every thought I try to drown
Just circles back to where you stand

You don’t have to touch to win
You read the silence on my skin
And every line I swore I drew
Was only waiting there for you

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[Pre-Chorus 2 — honesty]

I don’t run, I don’t resist
I know exactly what this is
I feel the pull before the fall
And still I don’t let go at all

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[Chorus 2 — deeper]

You have control
The kind that never needs a hold
You let me think I’m on my own
While every step is something you know

You have control
Not loud enough to break my bones
Just deep enough to take my soul
I hate how much it feels like home

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[Bridge — the most vulnerable moment, soft, almost whispered]

Say my name
Don’t say it loud
Say it like a secret I won’t tell

I don’t need you to be kind
I just need you to be real
If I’m giving you my power
Don’t pretend it isn’t stolen

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[Final Chorus — acceptance]

You have control
And I don’t know when it began
Somewhere between your quiet hands
And all the parts of me I am

You have control
And I don’t fight it anymore
I stop pretending I’m unsure
I know exactly what I’m choosing

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[Outro — breath-level]

I know this isn’t safe…
I never said I wanted it to be.

Dark alt-pop with breathy vocals, deep bass, minimal drums, and slow, intimate psychological tension.