[Intro]
[Grunting]
What does he want?
Strength!
For what?
Suppression.
[Verse 1]
Kept a brick on my chest for a decade
Told myself “it’s fine,” it’s just dead weight
Smile on my face like a duct-taped bandage
Heart in a cage in the back of the attic
Bite my tongue till it tastes like iron
“Handle it alone” was the lie I admired
Every bad dream I just filed, archived it
Till the box in my ribcage started sparking
[Pre chorus]
I suppressed it for too long
Built a dam inside my lungs
Now the cracks run wide, I can’t stay strong
I’ve been choking on my own
[Chorus]
Hold it, hold it. Still feel pain
Hold it, hold it. am I still sane?
Hold it, hold it, am I smiling again?
Hold it,hold it!
[Verse 2]
Walkin’ round town like a closed-off crime scene
Past pain taped off, can’t cross my mind, please
Laugh too loud, play the class clown daily
Anything to keep the real me safely
Underneath jokes, man, the nights got violent
Not with fists, just the volume of the silence
Hands on my face in the bathroom mirror
Mouth say “fine,” but the eyes say “fear here”
[Pre Chorus]
I suppressed it for too long
Built a dam inside my lungs
Now the cracks run wide, I can’t stay strong
I’ve been choking on my own
[Chorus]
Hold it, hold it. Still feel pain
Hold it, hold it. am I still sane?
Hold it, hold it. am I smiling again?
Hold it, hold it!........ Did I fail?
[Guitar solo]
[Verse 3]
[Female vocal]
Met him on a bench by the late-night station
Old brown coat, eyes full of patience
He said, “Kid, you’re loud in your silence
You can drown in that quiet, or riot”
I laughed it off, but my voice was shaking
He said, “Name one hurt that you’re always faking”
So I said one word, then another came pouring
Next thing, it’s a storm, heavy rain, no warning
He just sat, didn’t flinch, didn’t fix it
Just held space while my whole world shifted
“Feel it,” he said, “or it lives there forever
You’re not weak, you’re just weathered, you’re weather”
[Chorus]
Hold it hold it, Still feel pain
Hold it hold it, am I still sane?
Hold it hold it, am I smiling again?
Hold it hold it!.... Did I fail?
[Verse 4]
I suppressed it for too long
Built a dam inside my lungs
Now the walls gave way, I’m not that strong
But I don’t have to bleed alone
[Female vocal]
’Cause a stranger at the floodgates said, “let it go”
Now my tears hit the ground like a drumroll
I’m screaming out the truth I’ve never shown
(yeah, I’m letting go)
(yeah, I’m letting go)
[Final Chorus]
Let go, let go. Still feel pain
Let go, let go. I'm still sane
Let go, let go. Will I smile again?
Let go, let go.........
[Outro]
The stranger place his hand on my shoulder, in support of my cries
'Don't worry, get up' he said. I'll guide through it all where freedom lies.
[Talking]
Welcome to the start of salvation!
