The Struggle

To many days like this

To many times to forgive

To tired to back down now

Knowing your face is in a frown

When my hands go up

They won't fall

Until it all falls down

I know these tears come with pain

I have nothing left to gain

Heartbroken and confused

My ego bruised

Accountability you refuse and excused

Playing the blame game

Which is lame

I thought love was the aim

Which sparked the flame

And has brought shame

Leaving you calling me out my name

Screaming "bring it bitch, it's fair game "

Dreams of you having my last name disappear

Your face with a sneer

Neither one of us hear or being clear

Me leaving was always your fear

Your tears usually bring me to my knees

I'm begging please

I'm doing everything to appease

But yet you're still displeased

My anger is like a disease

I disperse it with such ease

I'm not proud of it

I just know like a firecracker I can be lit

I apologize for everything I have done

I know on some things I am wrong

Hopefully one day we will be able to get along

I love you