Hell Over Mercy

This room is mine, but I’m not alone

Every wall knows what I’ve done

I see my face in broken glass

All the things I learned to mask

There’s grace breathing in my chest

Weak, but it hasn’t left yet

I don’t reach for it tonight

I just keep it alive

HELL over mercy

Louder in my head

Every voice that sounds like me

Wants my heart turned dead

Hell over mercy

I’m still caught between

They crowd close with fire and teeth

They talk like me when I’m asleep

They know my past, they know my shame

They use my voice, they say my name

Clemency shakes when I look back

At every line I never crossed

I don’t fight them yet

I just hold my ground

HELL over mercy

Louder in my head

Every voice that sounds like me

Wants my heart turned dead

Hell over mercy

I’m still caught between

I step between what I could be

And everything that pulls at me

Every scar they throw my way

Is a choice I didn’t make

Something waits without a sound

While my anger circles in

I don’t end this war

I live in it

I am split, but I still breathe

My hate feels strong, compassion weak

They wear my face, they tell my truth

Say the things I almost do

Humanity bends, but doesn’t break

Not tonight

HELL over mercy

Louder in my head

Every voice that sounds like me

Wants my heart turned dead

Hell over mercy

I’m still caught between

HELL over mercy

(Louder in my head)

Every voice that sounds like me

(Wants my heart turned dead)

Hell over mercy

(I’m still caught between)

Forgiveness takes a shallow breath

My hell waits, unchanged

So do I

And the room stays mine