Lessons

Life lessons from the past seem to last, not gone never seeming to go away, got a grip on me, PTSD Sucks for me. Isolation choking down tears, life was ruined for greed leading to nothing for her, gold digging black widow. I hope God let's the devil have fun with you.

What if I did this or that different. What if anyone listened to me. What if they weren't only there for money. Let down completely, family destroyed for me and my favorite person. Biggest fan. Always pushing me to do and be better, wile being so proud of me. Why did she have to be jealous over a father and son bond. Love unconditionally. I'm the last call he made to say he loved me. 4 hours before deceased, she kills him, he tried to get b away to me she came following, keeping me from seeing him, saving him, i hope the devil has a special place for her.

Life lessons from the past seem to last, not gone never seeming to go away, got a grip on me, PTSD Sucks for me. Isolation choking down tears, life was ruined for greed leading to nothing for her, gold digging black widow. I hope God let's the devil have fun with you.

One truth in my life my one day wife . She's all that's here for me I'm cooking most of these things down. Can't put it all on her, it's to sad. Told a friend the complete story and he called crying for a few days. I can't put that on her. She's still here for me, loving me showed me love is still a possibility, by letting me love her she loves me. Only person i keep close now.

Life lessons from the past seem to last, not gone never seeming to go away, got a grip on me, PTSD Sucks for me. Isolation choking down tears, life was ruined for greed leading to nothing for her, gold digging black widow. I hope God let's the devil have fun with you.

Ptsd telling me everything i don't want to see. Thinking about what if, I could have, should have, he wanted me to save him and I couldn't. God will punish her, hopefully. It killed me my passions my being is half gone, one person I'm still here for, gotta learn to leave the past alone, I don't know what to do. I don't want to let her down, I'm no fun to have around, I'm really down. PTSD haunting me during tge Holliday season. Starting on my birthday. Good sad memories. She took away from me. My pops was my best friend. I can't breathe i should have been able to save him no body believed me, she killed him.

Life lessons from the past seem to last, not gone never seeming to go away, got a grip on me, PTSD Sucks for me. Isolation choking down tears, life was ruined for greed leading to nothing for her, gold digging black widow. I hope God let's the devil have fun with you.

Anxiety, sadness is what i get for Christmas. Missing my best friend my father was killed then. Now one helped, unfortunately I didn't know my girl then she would have helped me help him makeing it possable. Ptsd has me wanting to throw up. I can't breathe