Where It Hurts To Remember

Hhh…

I still feel you…

I’ve been trying to tape the fractures in my mind back straight,

But every piece I lift reveals the ache I tried to gate.

I hide from love ’cause it cuts too deep,

Guess I learned early how to bury things I’d rather keep.

But you—

You saw the parts I swore I’d never show,

Held my trembling pulse when it dropped too low.

I walked away ’cause loving you was too true,

Too wide, too blue…

And I don’t know how to tell you

That I still breathe in your old sweater.

I keep pretending I’m fine without you,

But I’ve only gotten better at lies…

Only better…

Can you hear me breaking?

Every night I say your name.

I try to keep from shaking,

But the tremor stays the same.

If you feel me in the quiet,

Know I never meant to fall apart.

Can you hear me breaking?

Still echoing in your heart.

I replay our last words like a scratched-out song,

I was scared you’d go, so I pushed you first— so wrong.

Sometimes loving means you crash what’s pure,

Guess I’m guilty of running from something I wanted more.

But God—

You made me feel like I could outrun the damage,

Like I was more than the shadows I couldn’t manage.

Tell me—

Do I still linger in your dreams?

Or am I fading at the seams?

I swear if I could rewind,

I’d choose you every single time.

Give anything to rewrite that line—

Please rewind…

Can you hear me breaking?

Every night I say your name.

I try to keep from shaking,

But the tremor stays the same.

If you feel me in the quiet,

Know I never meant to fall apart.

Can you hear me breaking?

Still echoing in your heart.

If there’s a place where we still meet,

Where your touch still feels like home to me—

I’ll run there on bare feet…

Just say the word softly.

I’ll find you…

Where we were meant to be.