Lost in Love and Fear

Oh, I’ve been lost in my mind, wandering deep inside

Playing scenarios that hurt, tears I can't hide

Caught in a web of doubt, distrusting what’s true

But deep in my heart, I still love you

I don’t know how to love without hurting you in the end

Creating storms in my head, I can't pretend

Thoughts like shadows, whispering lies

Thinking you’re cheating, as my own fears rise

I say words that cut, don’t mean to break your heart

My love’s a battlefield, tearing us apart

But still you’re my treasure, my reason to try

Wishing I could see clearer through the tears in my eye

I love you so much, but I’m pushing away

Fighting my demons, each and every day

Lost in this chaos, don’t know how to be free

Hoping someday I can be the man you need me to be

I feel so blinded, trapped in my own mind

Thinking everyone’s lying, leaving truth behind

Yet, your touch is a blessing, your voice my salvation

You’re everything I want, my only revelation

Words I regret, I wish I could undo

Pain I’ve caused, I don’t want you to be blue

But I’m tangled in a cycle I need to break

For your love to heal the scars I forge and fake

I love you so much, but I’m pushing away

Fighting my demons, each and every day

Lost in this chaos, don’t know how to be free

Hoping someday I can be the man you need me to be

Maybe time will teach me to love without fear

To trust again and wipe away the tears

I’ll strive to be better, for myself and for you

Because without your love, I don't know what I’d do

So here I stand, with my heart in my hand

Hoping someday, I’ll understand

What it means to truly give and to receive

And to finally believe in what’s real, what I believe