Punch Holes In The Wall

Head full of traffic

Whole lane jammed, can’t pass it

Therapist talk, I just laugh it

“Breathe in deep” — yeah, I gas it

Pills in a tray by the mattress

Phone full of texts I ain’t answering

Mama say “pray,” I been asking

Why my own brain do the bashing

Mirror like, “who that?”

Eyes black ring like a bruise at

Thoughts swing back like a boomerang

Every new win, hear a mood snap

Scrolling through pain like a news app

Everybody posing like they all healed

Me, I’m in the corner with a loose cap

Pressure in my head I can’t unseal

I been tryna punch holes in the wall in my mind (yeah)

Every time I calm down, hear a voice rewind

Telling me I ain’t worth, I ain’t built, I ain’t fine

But I’m still here, still breathing, still crossing that line

Punch holes in the wall in my mind

Punch holes in the wall in my mind

Hands shake hard when I wake up

Night sweat deep, shirt caked up

Dark thoughts creep like a stakeout

Talk real low so they stay shut

Homies say “bro, you should speak more”

I don’t wanna crack on the beat, though

If I let it leak, what I bleed for?

Heart on my sleeve in a street war

Pop said “man up, don’t fold”

I was just twelve with a storm cold

Holding my breath at the front door

Smiling like “yeah, I’m under control”

Now I’m grown, still dodging my phone

Still feel small in a big home

Still that kid with a split soul

Trying not to fall in the same hole

If you feel that weight on your neck, say “yeah” (yeah)

If you lie and say “I’m good” ’cause you scared, say “yeah” (yeah)

We ain’t broken, we bent, we repair, say “yeah” (yeah)

[whispered vocals] Say “yeah,” say “yeah,” say “yeah”