“Everything I Wanted (Still Not Happy)”

Verse 1]

Two years in, it’s a quiet storm

Same hands I used to crave feel warm… but worn

We got the house, we got the plans

But I still feel lost when I’m holdin’ your hand

Smiles in the pictures, ghosts in my chest

Say “I love you,” but it feels like a test

Everything’s perfect, yeah, that’s the lie

I got what I wanted, but I still wanna cry

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I thought love would fix the ache

But now I fake it just to keep us safe

I whisper dreams I don’t believe

And wonder why I still can’t breathe

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🎤 Why am I so sad with everything I wanted?

Why do I feel trapped when I’m the one who got it?

They say this is love — then why does it feel like loss?

I’m drowning in peace, paying joy as the cost

I thought this would save me — now it weighs me down

Sleeping right beside you, but I still feel drowned

Almost two years, and I’m breaking inside

Got the life I prayed for — still wanna hide…

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I don’t hate you, that’s what hurts the most

You’re kind, you’re good — but I feel like a ghost

Every “how was your day” feels like a lie

’Cause I can’t explain what I can’t define

You do everything right, but I’m still not whole

I miss who I was before love took control

I wanted forever, now I just want out

But I’m too damn scared to speak that out loud

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Maybe I’m broken, or maybe it’s fate

Maybe love isn’t enough to feel safe

Maybe I should leave, but I just stay

And die a little more every day…

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🎤 Why am I so sad with everything I wanted?

Why do I feel numb in a dream I plotted?

I built this life like a perfect scene

But I lost myself somewhere in between

Almost two years, and I’m fading slow

Staring at the door, but afraid to go

This ain’t hate — this is quiet despair

And I don’t even know if I still care…

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I got what I wanted…

But it don’t feel like mine…

And I miss feeling alive.

(Still not happy…)