Gray static

(Verse 1)

Woke up with a weight on my chest again

Sunlight leaking through the blinds, but it won’t come in

Mirror shows a face I barely know

Eyes so tired, moving way too slow

Voices in my head don’t ever sleep

They whisper all the doubts I try to keep

Every “what if” turns to “you can’t”

Every breath feels second-hand

(Pre-Chorus)

I’m smiling in the crowd but I’m breaking alone

Heart like a cracked screen, flickering phone

I scream but it’s silent, nobody hears

Drowning in the noise of my own fears

(Chorus)

This pain don’t fade, it echoes in my brain

Anxiety rain, pouring every day

I’m fighting a war they can’t see

Depression got a hold on me

I’m lost in the dark, can’t find the light

Shaking at 3 a.m. every night

But I’m still breathing, even when it’s hard

Even with a shattered heart

(Verse 2)

Overthinking every word I said

Replaying every moment in my head

“What if they leave? What if I fail?”

Thoughts like a storm with hurricane gales

Phone buzzing but I let it ring

Don’t got the strength for anything

Fake “I’m good” when they ask how I feel

Truth is, I don’t even know what’s real

(Pre-Chorus)

Heavy chest, I can’t slow down

Mind racing while I’m stuck in the ground

Trying to stand but my knees won’t bend

Every bad thought feels like the end

(Chorus)

This pain don’t fade, it echoes in my brain

Anxiety rain, pouring every day

I’m fighting a war they can’t see

Depression got a hold on me

I’m lost in the dark, can’t find the light

Shaking at 3 a.m. every night

But I’m still breathing, even when it’s hard

Even with a shattered heart

(Bridge)

If I disappear, would they notice the space?

Or just replace me without a trace?

I’m tired of battling what’s in my mind

Trying to heal what I can’t define

But maybe the scars mean I survived

Maybe I’m stronger just staying alive

Even when hope feels paper-thin

There’s a spark somewhere within

(Final Chorus – softer, hopeful)

This pain won’t stay, it won’t always rain

Clouds break open after the strain

I’m fighting a war they can’t see

But it won’t always own me

I’m finding the light, even if it’s small

Crawling forward when I fall

I’m still breathing, that’s my start

Healing a slowly mending heart