[Dark trap soul. Deep 808s. Echoing vocals. Pain in every pause]
[Verse 1]
I don’t smile the same no more,
Something cracked behind the core.
I don’t cry in front of folks —
That’s what empty nights were for.
Heartbreak ain’t just love lost,
It’s trust that won’t come back.
It’s lookin’ in the mirror like
“Why I always get attached?”
I gave my all when I had nothin’,
Still got played like I was bluffin’.
Now I bleed in lowercase,
Quiet rage, no discussion.
They say “God don’t make mistakes,”
But damn, this pain feel custom-made.
I got questions, no replies,
Just cold rooms and darker days.
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[Hook]
I buried my truth in songs,
Now my verses sound like screams.
I smile in public, but
Inside I’m split at the seams.
Anxiety ridin’ my chest,
Can’t breathe, can’t sleep, can’t rest.
I’m tired, I’m mad, I’m depressed…
But still tell the world “I’m blessed.”
⸻
[Verse 2]
I been ghosted by people I prayed for,
Loved folks who never stayed for
The real me — just my potential.
Now my joy feel circumstantial.
I lost myself in tryna please,
Broke m
[Dark trap soul. Deep 808s. Echoing vocals. Pain in every pause]
[Verse 1]
I don’t smile the same no more,
Something cracked behind the core.
I don’t cry in front of folks —
That’s what empty nights were for.
Heartbreak ain’t just love lost,
It’s trust that won’t come back.
It’s lookin’ in the mirror like
“Why I always get attached?”
I gave my all when I had nothin’,
Still got played like I was bluffin’.
Now I bleed in lowercase,
Quiet rage, no discussion.
They say “God don’t make mistakes,”
But damn, this pain feel custom-made.
I got questions, no replies,
Just cold rooms and darker days.
⸻
[Hook]
I buried my truth in songs,
Now my verses sound like screams.
I smile in public, but
Inside I’m split at the seams.
Anxiety ridin’ my chest,
Can’t breathe, can’t sleep, can’t rest.
I’m tired, I’m mad, I’m depressed…
But still tell the world “I’m blessed.”
⸻
[Verse 2]
I been ghosted by people I prayed for,
Loved folks who never stayed for
The real me — just my potential.
Now my joy feel circumstantial.
I lost myself in tryna please,
Broke my own heart tryna bring peace.
How do you heal when the wounds repeat?
How do you stand with no ground beneath?
Every “I’m good” was a lie,
Every “I’m straight” was me tryin’
Not to fold in the middle of pressure,
Not to cry where nobody’d measure.
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[Bridge – Whispered or layered with distortion]
I’m angry, but I’m scared.
I’m lonely, but I’m there
For everybody else —
Who gon’ notice if I tear?
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[Hook – Repeat, heavier]
I buried my truth in songs,
Now my verses sound like screams.
I smile in public, but
Inside I’m split at the seams.
Anxiety ridin’ my chest,
Can’t breathe, can’t sleep, can’t rest.
I’m tired, I’m mad, I’m depressed…
But still tell the world “I’m blessed.”
⸻
[Outro]
Maybe this ain’t for the charts,
Maybe this just for me.
Just a letter to my heart,
From the part I let no one see…
I’m still here.
But don’t ask me how.
Kal
