Seven Years Too Late

I gave you my twenties like they were cheap wine

Poured myself empty just to keep you satisfied

Bent every boundary called it compromise

Learned how to disappear right in front of my own eyes

You loved me convenient Soft-spoken, half-alive

But a woman gets dangerous When she finally survives

So here’s to seven years too late

To all the tears I called “just fate”

To shrinking down so you felt tall

God, I almost lost it all

I stayed loyal to a fire

That only ever left me burned

Now I’m dancing in the ashes

Watching my whole life return

You can keep the guilt you gave me

I don’t carry dead weight anymore

Seven years I chose you first

Tonight I choose myself for sure

You said I was dramatic Any time I’d need more

Funny how “too much” Means “a woman keeping score”

I cooked, cleaned, comforted Played therapist in lace

While you mistook my kindness For weakness you could waste

And maybe that’s the ugliest truth I finally understand

I kept begging for love From someone who liked being needed

More than being a man

So here’s to seven years too late

To all the tears I called “just fate”

To shrinking down so you felt tall

God, I almost lost it all

I stayed loyal to a fire

That only ever left me burned

Now I’m dancing in the ashes

Watching my whole life return

You can keep the guilt you gave me

I don’t carry dead weight anymore

Seven years I chose you first

Tonight I choose myself for sure

I don’t hate you That would mean I still care

I just hate the girl I became Trying to meet you there

But she saved my life By finally breaking down

Because rock bottom’s just a grave If you decide to stay underground

So here’s to wasted holy years

To silent dinners, swallowed tears

To every time I killed my spark

Just so you could own the dark

Now my laughter sounds different

Now my mirror doesn’t lie

I look fucking beautiful

When I stop apologizing for my life

And if you ever wonder

Why I walked out that door

It’s because after seven years

I finally believed I deserved more.