**[Verse 1]**
I wake up tired even after I sleep
Like my dreams running laps I can’t keep
Got a thousand little voices debating my worth
Every minor mistake feel nuclear first
I smile in public, I joke, I deflect
Got armor built out of humor and intellect
But alone in the room, it get different at night
Every silence turn into a fight
Overthinking every word that I said
Replaying conversations in my head
“Should’ve said this,” “why’d you say that?”
Brain looping like a scratched-out track
They say “you good?” and I nod on cue
How I explain what I barely construe?
It’s not sadness, it’s heavier than that
Like a weight on my chest I can’t unpack
**[Pre-Hook – Soft Build]**
I keep it together in front of the crowd
But it gets so loud…
**[Hook – Catchy, Melodic]**
It’s loud in my head, can’t turn it down
Thoughts going round and round and round
Tryna find peace but it won’t be found
When it’s loud in my head
I’m smiling outside, breaking within
Fighting a war that nobody can see
If I say I’m fine, I’m just pretending
It’s loud in my head
**[Verse 2]**
Scrolling through lives that look so clean
Everybody shining through a filtered screen
Meanwhile I’m stuck in a fog so thick
Turning small doubts catastrophic
I compare my pace to a highlight reel
Like I’m behind in a race that ain’t real
Pressure to be more, pressure to win
Pressure just to function and breathe again
Some days getting up feel brave
Like I climbed out a self-dug grave
Other days I just float through hours
Numb to the taste of my own damn power
I hate that I know what to say to a friend
But can’t take my own advice in the end
Self-aware but still I drown
In the tide of a self-made frown
**[Pre-Hook]**
I keep it together in front of the crowd
But it gets so loud…
**[Hook – Bigger, Layered Vocals]**
It’s loud in my head, can’t turn it down
Thoughts going round and round and round
Tryna find peace but it won’t be found
When it’s loud in my head
I’m smiling outside, breaking within
Fighting a war that nobody can see
If I say I’m fine, I’m just pretending
It’s loud in my head
**[Bridge – Half-Rap, Half-Sung]**
Maybe I don’t need to win every day
Maybe surviving is strength in a way
Maybe the noise don’t make me weak
Maybe it’s proof there’s depth in me
Therapy sessions, learning to sit
With the parts of myself I used to resist
Healing ain’t pretty, progress ain’t straight
But I’m still here — and that’s something great
**[Final Hook – Stripped, Hopeful Edge]**
It’s loud in my head… but I’m learning now
How to sit with the sound somehow
It don’t disappear, but it don’t control
Every part of my soul
It’s loud in my head
But I’m still breathing instead.
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HollowVotive
