Idk

If just for a moment i could hide my emotions, all these demons in my mind keep me up all night smokin, and chokin, panic attacks feel like im stranded in the ocean, left with no hope, and then you start to lose focus, all this hocus pocus, I hope I overdose, on this rollercoaster of emotions. Rollin doja out in the open. Give a fuck about a cop, bitch, im mentally broken. Tried to gain a bond with my mom, first chance she got, she went ghost, she gone. Shes the reason that my father got custody, Druggy boyfriend, used to kick and punch on me, from 1-3, still a little fuzzy, but that was my age, not the time of the day, pretty sure he still looked away, maybe he just got out, man, its hard to say, but moms sneakin around and seein my son, bein betrayed by blood, got me feelin numb, grippin the gun, finger on the trigger, time to figure out, what all of this bullshit about, now i hear you best friends with my ex wife? Picture of you with my son and the bitch that was rollin a crack pipe, last night! Ex wife took me to court not once but 5 times, and I came out victorious all 5, finally seeing my son, but this bitch decide to move to the other side, of the river, just across the county line. So we goin back to court for the 6th time. Fuck Douglas County!!... Only went to court 1 time, I lost everything, man, even my own rights.