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I wish I could speak my mind. I always think people don’t like me, my mind races an races on about the what if’s. Why can I shut them off. When I drink I have no thought it all just spills out my mouth which I hate. How can I feel so good but yet feel so awful at the same time. I always feel like I say to much but then when I sit back and just listen I see everyone looking at me waiting for me to put my input in. I just wanna feel like I can speak without my depression or anxiety get to me. I wanna feel freee. I wanna be able to feel like I can say anything with no remorse.