[Verse 1]
Fourteen
Still in my school shoes
Belly turning
Two lines on that small blue
Bathroom light
Buzzing like my heartbeat
Whole world spinning
On a cracked tile floor beneath me
Mama’s voice
“Baby
What did you do?”
Social worker
Writing like she already knew
I was just
Some number on a big file
But I was a child
Carrying a child
[Chorus]
They keep saying “you’re so strong”
But I’m tired of being tough
Tired of new faces
Asking if I’ve had enough
Yeah
I grew up in these meetings
Grew up in that waiting room
I was just a kid in care
Sleeping in a stranger’s room
Fourteen and still a child
Trying to be a mother too
[Verse 2]
New house smell
Same old sad feeling
Plastic bags
Holding everything I’m keeping
“Make yourself at home”
But this ain’t my home
Is it?
Photos on their wall
But none of them got me in it
Bedtime rules
Like I’m misbehaving
Eyes on me
Like I’m always dangerous
They talk soft
But they never really listen
They ask “how are you?”
Then they check the next box missing
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
You don’t see the nights I cried
Quiet so the walls don’t hear
You don’t see me hold my breath
Every time they say “we’re moving next year”
You don’t feel the way it hurts
Hearing “mum” from other mouths
You just see a broken file
You don’t see the girl inside it now
[Chorus]