“BLOOD WEY I NEVER HOLD”
hmmmm ah…
Weeey…
Lord have mercy…
Jesus na Lord…
hmmmm…
I enter this world with your name for my blood
But no arm to remember, no face to hold
hmmmm ah…
Dem tell me say “she don go,” like say e explain the pain
Like one sentence fit bury lifetime of wahala
I grow dey ask God question wey I no fit talk loud
Why You go give me mama, come take am sharp-sharp now?
weeey…
Every birthday candle heavy for my chest to breathe
’Cause na you I dey wish, no be thing-thing
hmmmm…
I learn how to strong too early for life
Dey smile outside while I dey fight night to night
Dem see man—
But inside na small pikin still dey call
“Mama… you dey hear me?”
Lord have mercy…
Dem say blood no dey forget
Even when memory don waka
hmmmm ah…
So why my chest still dey ache like song wey never finish?
Jesus na Lord…
But Lord… why this road?
Mama, I never hold you
But you dey live inside my vein
weeey…
Every tear wey I swallow
Every silent pain
Mama, I never know you
But I dey feel you when I pray
hmmmm ah…
When life bend me for knee
I dey hear your spirit talk—
“Stand up… my son.”
Lord have mercy… Jesus na Lord…
I dey watch other pikin run go their mama arm
Me I stand still, dey pretend say nothing harm me
hmmmm…
I learn how to clap for love wey I no receive
I learn how to cry quietly
Dem say time dey heal—but time just teach disguise
How to laugh with hole wey no fit fill inside
weeey…
I become everything wey I must be alone
Man build from prayer and survival mode
Mama, if you dey see me now
I hope say you proud of who I don become
I turn absence to purpose
And pain to fire
hmmmm ah…
I break circle wey I never see start
I raise love from broken heart
Jesus na Lord…
Sometimes I dey wonder…
If you resemble me
If my hand na your hand
If my strong faith come from you
hmmmm…
You dey sing?
You dey cry?
You pray for me before you say goodbye?
Lord have mercy…
’Cause I don dey pray for you my whole life
Without sabi how to call your name
weeey…
Mama, I never hold you
But somehow you hold me
hmmmm ah…
Through every dark season
You no let me drown
Mama, I never know you
But I know say you near
When my voice crack for prayer
And my eye full with tear
Jesus na Lord…
Lord have mercy…
I forgive the world for wetin e no give me
But some night… I still wish say you stay
hmmmm…
No be anger—na truth
That kind truth dey pain deep
I no need perfection
Just one moment of your heartbeat
weeey…
But God get plan wey I no fully see
So I carry you go front through who I be
Every time I love hard
Every time I protect
Every time I refuse abandon my pikin dem
Na you dey inside me
Na your legacy dey breathe
hmmmm ah…
Final Chorus (Spiritual, lifted)
Mama, I never hold you
But heaven sabi your name
Lord have mercy…
And one day when I cross that line
I go run go meet you without pain
Mama, I never know you
But eternity go explain
hmmmm ah… weeey…
Till that time I go live loud
So your sacrifice no go waste
Jesus na Lord…
Jesus na Lord…
hmmmm… ah…
Weeey…
Lord have mercy…