Verse 1
I wake up tired of breathing
Like air’s just something I owe
My mirror keeps on staring
Like it knows what I don’t
I laugh when it’s convenient
I nod like I’m okay
But my head is way too loud
For how quiet I stay
Pre-Chorus
I don’t know when I disappeared
I was here, now I’m not
I learned how to feel nothing
So it wouldn’t hurt as much
Chorus
I don’t feel sad
I don’t feel fine
I’m just killing time
Inside my mind
I don’t cry
I don’t scream
I just fade out
In between
I’m alive
But it feels pretend
Like I stopped being me
And no one noticed when
Verse 2
My phone lights up like it matters
But I don’t answer at all
I’m scared if I start talking
I won’t stop and I’ll fall
Everyone says “you’re doing great”
Guess I got good at the lie
If this is what growing up is
Why do I feel left behind?
Pre-Chorus
I keep all my thoughts on mute
So they don’t ruin the room
I smile just enough
To not make anyone worry about you
Chorus
I don’t feel sad
I don’t feel fine
I’m just killing time
Inside my mind
I don’t cry
I don’t scream
I just fade out
In between
I’m alive
But it feels pretend
Like I stopped being me
And no one noticed when
Bridge (very soft, almost whispered)
If I disappear for a while
Would it even change a thing?
Or am I just background noise
In everybody’s scene?
I don’t wanna die
I just don’t wanna feel
Like I’m stuck on pause
And nothing here is real
Outro
So I breathe in
And I breathe out
Like that’s all I’m good at now
Still here
Still blank
Still waiting
To feel something again.