Why Do I Have to Choose?

[Verse]
Torn paper hearts, scattered in my chest,
Childhood shadows won't let me rest.
Every choice a blade, cutting through my mind,
Happiness or death, no middle I can find.
[Chorus]
Why do I have to choose, why can't I just be?
Chained to the past, can't set myself free.
A tug-of-war inside, ripping at my seams,
Happiness or death, trapped between extremes.
[Verse 2]
Ghosts in the hallway, screaming in my veins,
Memories like hurricanes, circling my pain.
Momma's voice a whip, daddy's silence cold,
The child inside still crying, never grows old.
[Bridge]
Mirror cracked, reflections never clear,
Who am I today? The answer's what I fear.
Swinging on a pendulum, I’m losing my grip,
Falling into voids, drowning as I slip.
[Chorus]
Why do I have to choose, why can't I just be?
Chained to the past, can't set myself free.
A tug-of-war inside, ripping at my seams,
Happiness or death, trapped between extremes.
[Verse 3]
Band-aids on the scars, but they still bleed,
A garden of thorns, no room for seeds.
Borderlines drawn in the sand of my soul,
Every step forward leaves another hole.

female vocals, sad, rap, atmospheric, emo, ballad, trap ballad, emotional, melancholic