[Verse 1]
Scroll-stained fingers
Deadlines I invented
Half-packed suitcase
Plans I never meant yet
Eyes on the ceiling
Clock hands cut in half
How long till it’s over
Or I can finally laugh
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I don’t know what I’m here for
Don’t know when the pain ends
Don’t know if I’ll make peace
With all the ghosts I live in
But I know one thing
Yeah
Clear as the scar on my chest
One day I’ll love a daughter I don’t know yet
One day I’ll hold a daughter I don’t know yet
[Verse 2]
Childhood in fragments
Shards on the kitchen floor
I still hear yelling
Every time I lock a door
Therapist asking
“Who would you be without the hurt?”
I just shrug and joke
Change the subject
Change the words
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[Bridge]
Maybe I’ll be 30
Maybe sixty
Tired and slow
Maybe I’ll be halfway gone
By the time she calls me home
But I’ll learn soft voices
I’ll learn gentle hands
Break this heavy history
So she never has to understand
That I was so unsure
Shaking in my bed
Counting down the days
Wishing I was someone else instead
[low vocal register]Till I said[/low vocal register]
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