Lead in My Lungs

[Intro]
Yeah
Heart heavy
Head loud
[Verse 1]
Threw my phone at the wall
Still I hear you in the pieces
All your texts in my head
Looping like they got diseases
Slept on benches in my brain
Where your name still carves the wood
Told my boys that I’m okay
Knowing damn well I’m not good
Staring holes into the fridge light
Didn’t eat, just felt the hum
Every shelf another memory
Every shelf another us
You moved on like changing outfits
I’m stuck bleeding through this one
You said “heal, it takes some time”
How much time till I feel numb?
[Chorus]
I got rage in my veins, got rain in my eyes
Heavy like the world when you cut all the ties
I been screaming at the sky, but it don’t say none
All this pain in my chest feel like lead in my lungs
Like lead in my lungs (yeah)
Like lead in my lungs (uh)
I keep drowning in the dark that you came from
All this pain in my chest feel like lead in my lungs
[Verse 2]
Mom asking if I’m praying
I’ve been talking to the floor
Ashes in an empty bottle
Sleeping by the bedroom door
I’m a ghost in all our pictures
Cropping you out just to cope
But the outline of your shoulder
Still be strangling my hope
You be laughing in some new feed
I be laughing at my scars
Broken mirror in the bathroom
Shows me how divided hearts
Cut my hair, burned all your letters
Still your voice inside my skull
Telling me I’d never lose you
Guess you proved you’re capable
[Chorus]
I got rage in my veins, got rain in my eyes
Heavy like the world when you cut all the ties
I been screaming at the sky, but it don’t say none
All this pain in my chest feel like lead in my lungs
Like lead in my lungs (hey)
Like lead in my lungs
I keep drowning in the dark that you came from
All this pain in my chest feel like lead in my lungs

rap, Dark trap banger with crushing sub-bass and sharp, glitchy hats. Male vocals: husky, close-mic rap in the verses, then shouted, stacked hook with octave doubles. Sparse, eerie keys in the background; chorus hits with distorted 808 glides and wide stereo ad-libs. Energy rises from cold, contained anger to explosive catharsis on each hook., sad