[Verse 1]
I’m twenty-five and tired
With a tiny pair of shoes
I leave my keys at grandma’s door
Then drive back through the bruise
She lives with them full-time
I come in on my days
I kiss her by the hallway
Then I watch her drift away
[Pre-Chorus]
Fifty percent sounds fair
Until you count the ache
I fold my love in half again
And call it what I make
[Chorus]
I’m not gone, I’m not gone
I’m still here, I’m still here
Half a mom, full of love
Half a mom, full of fear
I’m not gone, I’m not gone
When she calls, I’m right there
Half a mom, full of love
Still learning how to care
[Verse 2]
Grandpa cuts her apples
Grandma combs her hair
I’m grateful for the hands that hold
The nights I’m not there
But I stand in that doorway
With my heart stuck in my throat
Trying to be two homes at once
And keep her safe afloat
[Pre-Chorus]
I hear the small talk
I hear what they don’t say
I’m scared my daughter’s little world
Will learn me as a day
[Chorus]
I’m not gone, I’m not gone
I’m still here, I’m still here
Half a mom, full of love
Half a mom, full of fear
I’m not gone, I’m not gone
When she calls, I’m right there
Half a mom, full of love
Still learning how to care
[Bridge]
If love could count in minutes
Mine would fill the sky
If grace could hold a mother up
Then let it hold me high
I missed some firsts, I know it
That cut still burns me through
But every time she reaches out
I’m reaching back to you
[Final Chorus]
I’m not gone, I’m not gone
I’m still here, I’m still here
Half a mom, full of love
Half a mom, full of fear
I’m not gone, I’m not gone
When she calls, I’m right there
Half a mom, full of love
Still learning how to care
[Outro]
Half a mom
Still her mom
Still here